Psychonaut

My brain has been damaged mistake like psychonaut, Mind set to space just like an astronaut, Mistakened my reflection to be the jugarnaut. But No Junkie in distress will I die or not? Im a fucking mess now time finally caught Up Up Up & away Then down down down Splash! Hit a wave. Wheres my empathy I so long to crave? My insides come up Ill internally bleed to my grave, This wasnt ecstacy just a mad mans escapade & Im just a cocaroach who was dosed with Fucking raid, Now I feel blood dripping from my brain Now alot more than a perpetual stain, Im tied to the tracks now here comes the train, Outside and In Holy Fuck not the same This is my last moment alive, To my family and friends I love you good-bye, Im sorry I did this I dont know why Dont know why I take or even why I try And while curled up alone I started to cry This cant be it, Dont want to say good-bye But then my stomach falls apart and my life flashes by. This is it megan Im going to die, But she sat there and held me and I didnt know why All I thought to say is I love you and goodbye Now Im greatful to be here & blessed to be alive Cause I cheated death and I dont know why, Dont know how but I really tried, My loved ones pain was engraved in my mind My own shame wandering in mine, So I swear a change Because I am alive So glad it isnt over so glad it was not good bye